There's a lot that goes into being a person. Everyone has some many different aspects of their personalities and they are constantly changing and evolving. I firmly believe that women are more complex than men. Women have so many different hats that they wear within a day and so many roles that they fulfill.
For the last 5 months I have been trying to balance my new "mommy" role with all the others that I have. On any given day I am mommy, wife, daughter, sister, friend, and daughter in-law. Discovering how to fit my newest role with all the others hasn't been difficult. The difficult part has been making sure that being "mommy" doesn't overtake all of who I am.
It's happened before. Back when I was pregnant, that was my identity. I was carrying a life and it was FANTASTIC! Sure it was uncomfortable at times but it was so new and exciting. Sarah was the first grandbaby on both sides and everyone was anticipating her arrival. This meant I was showered with attention and questions. I tried REALLY hard not to be that girl. The one that does nothing but talk about her pregnancy. But let's be honest, I was a stay at home wife and being pregnant was all I had going on. So for the first few months I was so obsessed with being pregnant and it being my purpose.
Now I am a mother. It's challenging, exciting, new, and emotional. I am trying very hard to not forget that I am not just a mom. I also have other parts of me. However, being a stay at home mom makes that a little hard. I spend every day with Sarah. No one else knows her routine the way I do, no one else knows the difference between her bored and sleepy cries, and no one else can get her to go to sleep as quickly as I can. Not even Daddy. (But Daddy sure can get Sarah to laugh like crazy.) I am not disposable, but I am not only Sarah's mom.
So I guess the point of this whole post was just to remind myself that it's okay for me to take some time to myself. It's actually more than okay to sit and not do any chores and just take a minute to enjoy life. It's okay to take Sarah over to Grandma for a few hours. It makes Grandma happy and Mama gets to relax. So I shouldn't feel guilty about sitting on my couch watching Grey's Anatomy reruns and drinking a Coke while Sarah plays at Grandma's because I am not ONLY her mom. I am also a woman who needs some time to recharge and refuel. So that is what I will go back to doing.